On a scale of satisfaction, with 1 being not at all satisfied and 10 being totally satisfied, I rated myself as follows:

Mentally: 6/10 I waste a lot of time watching TV. I procrastinate way too much.

Physically: 4/10 I'm badly out-of-shape. Eating habits aren't too good.

Emotionally: 6/10 I'm still lying about my sexuality to my family. I still get depressed from the closet life.

Financially: 2/10 I need a job. I want to get an apartment. Did I mention I need a job.

Spiritually: 5/10 So many questions I keep pushing off rather than facing head on.

We all want to enjoy life. To measure 10 on every scale. But it takes so much effort. Step by step, I've been working at raising my scales and changing how I'm living. I would love to some day be able to honestly say I'm at 10 each of the scales.

Mentally. Working on this web page is the best way I know how to raise my mentally state. It causes me to think about things.

Physically. I'd like to get in better shape. I recently joined a gym. As far as changing appearance, I got my ear left pierced (which I've wanted to do for a while) and I got a different hair cut. As far as diet, I've got a ways to go to eating healthy, but I'm attempting to make steps in that direction. I'm not eating meat or meat products (for various reasons). I'm working on cutting out snacking. I did give up caffiene recently for the hell of it. I've also started taking a vegetarian multivitamin. Hopefully I'll stick with it all.

Emotionally. I'm sick of lying to people and pretending to be straight. So I'm coming out. I still need to tell my family. I'll go to a PFLAG meeting Sunday to talk to someone and hopefully soon I'll tell my family.

Financially. I'll be starting the job search soon. I'm going down to Anderson, where I'll get my resume done. Then Saturday there's a job fair I plan to attend. When I get a job, I believe things will start to fall into place.

Spiritually. I'm still attending church. I have a lot of questions running through my head, and I do need to deal with them. Of the five categories, this one seems to be the one I put off till last, I guess I tell myself that it isn't very important, yet I know it's central to life itself.